he was my whole world.
and still.
i do accept this. but it's still too hard for me. tough one.
even in my busy days or crowded place he's still showing up in my mind. he always there.
the loneliest time is when in the night before asleep and early in the morning after i wake up. my thoughts would be filled with those 'what if' and the memories of ours. even in the middle of my sleep it's so hurting my chest and i got awake with tears.
i never command the tears to fell, but they just did.
i still,
it's hard for me.
not for him. not even a little.
he was, and is, my first love. even i had it in the past, but i never as truly as this. even i just seems just always fooling around when i was with him, i do true put my heart on him. i trusted him. i had faith in him.
i know, besides his feeling already gone, he left me for good thing as he said.
but he left me with no good.
and leaving those scars which i couldn't heal.
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