at last.

And finally,
the rope of this two ship has finally detached
after sailing together side by side for 16 months
maybe one just can't carried anymore
or running out of fuel it's hard for them to still carry on on this big sea
or one being heavily load it can't take it anymore
or they just going for a different destination
but for sure
this one ship has pretty deep hole on its deck
maybe a repairman on the shore can fixed it
let's go to the another side,

:)

He said that i didn't value him more.
He said that my society was just too "free"
He said what he did (that he shouldn't do) was all because of me
He said that I didn't love him back then
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He just don't understand
that I valued him much I didnt really response to the boys yg mau sok2 kenalan or so whatever unless my close friends and those needed for businesses.
I have bunch of friends from elementary to senior high which of course he didn't know but still jealous of. I mean, they can't be all women whom i chose to be my friends, guys too. I know them, it just you that don't respect my society because from what I see back then your friends wasn't this much of course and all boys.
And now you try making friends by chatting 'girls' that you don't even know, try to call, is that how people make friends ? really ? you're a guy. When a guy started to make a conversation, you know what is mean. And then you said that it was all be cause of me that make you did that? I wouldn't do that if I were you. Cause I know that would make a permanent ill in someone heart. But I know, you just don't understand. You didn't think that far.

You said back then when you love me I didn't love you ?
really ?
then maybe you don't understand the way I showed my love for someone. And why would I bother staying for this long and forgiving what you did to this relationship?
or maybe you can check my previous writing. It was written on May 2016 . A hell damn year ago. :)
Think of it.

Limit Exist to be Exceeded ?

Hello no one,
long time hasn't write anything since im busy with college thing ;). Lol this just like a month-yearly diary i don't know why I even write in here, nobody would read anyway. But maybe that's the point. I just want it for myself, so that in future i can see what was going on in the past even not everyday. I'm trying to be good at writing, I wanted to express myself well through writing even sometimes most of the time me being absent-minded like *seeing the ceiling*.
So, now I'm being chill in my room, nothing to do all day long. It's a free time which I rarely got back weeks and months ago. Im not joining my major's organization, but i just trying to keep up the events by joining as  a committee that they held cause im just into that kind of thing. I don't know why, but I just don't feel like joining the organization. But I joined this one organization, an international one named IAAS. I feel blast and thankful being in there but yet i feel sorry for my many absence because there are things that been on my head and it just too complicated i even don't know how to write in here.
I like companion, but sometimes i enjoy my solitude.

Had having much works and tasks to do, i feel so tired I always wanted to rest. I mean who doesn't? If i pushed myself too hard, things just didn't seems to be well-done and i might get sick just like last time. But then I see words saying that 'limit exists to be exceeded". Do we have to defeat the limit itself ? how you measure the limit ? how can you know that it's already the limit?
From what i see limit is the point where you think you can't go any further , it's already the peak.  Be careful with the limit, you always can exceeded but enjoy the process. I mean, do it gently, step by step. Cause everything at once doesn't seem a good way tho. lol what is this am i mumbling


I've been pissed with someone for days i feel like it has reached the peak of my pissed-meter. But something that I always remember from my teacher back to middle school, patience has no limit. You can always be patience, it's yourself that deciced to have enough of patience. I still remember he was so kind and patience as it finest I respect him for that (maybe that's what teacher like rightxD) but i do always adore that kind of people. And me myself is the one who also needed to control my pissed-meter also haha.
The point is, limit is relative. Ciao!