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Like somehow you just dont belong:(((( what a dummy gummy gloomy day!!! Double attack of regretness, with being unacceptable topping on the edge;((( desperately deeply terribly s.a.d.

Failed over and over again as usual.  I may not care, but deep inside it just hurting me so bad. It's bothering me so much that im not good enough, less better than them, that i could have been do it better. It's so hard to get out of this regretness feeling. Haunted me on everything i do. Especially when it comes to him, he got in while im not. Pathetic, moron, loser, that's what i hear on my mind.
And feeling like youre not belong anywhere........making me sick. And hurts.

Don't say that everything is alright cause no it's not. Don't say that im gonna be fine cause i wont be.