duh ancur mental wkwk makanya ini namanya mental breakdown kali ya astaga hhaha. lah gabisa nge enter lewat browser hp.. yaudala wkw kenapa gitu harus teriak2 ngebentak2 nanya, pdhal bisa nanya baik2 ga ngagetin gitu bikin stres udah stres lg ngerjain skripsi stres masalah yg lain ini datang2 bikin down bgt perkara bajunya gaada di lemari kamarnya pake banting pintu segala sumpah dah. from the very first moment i knew tiap dia pulang pasti ada aja kejadian kya gini, the last time what he did was pagi2 gw masih tidur dia ngedobrak kamar teriak2in all the stuff that hurt my feelings smpe nangis diem until i left home 3days. it was really affect me until today and later on sampe trauma klo org udh nada tinggi especially boys dan ngebentak2 mata lngsung berair. mental gw yg lemah kayaknya dah wkw yg lain keknya bnyak yg lebih parah mungkin tpi yg kyagini emg gabisa gw sumpah i always train myself to not hurt easily and my eyes to not easily teary also but the more i hold it the more it wanted to burst out. gw sebagai adik salah apa ya bingung udah sebisa mungkin diem aja di rmh ga aneh2, nurut2 tetep aja. maybe because im still not graduate and work and he gotta be look down on me as trash or smth. selalu kena omel for small things yg bisa dibicarain baik2 cape bgt di rmh so i always lock my room because I don't feel safe either at home. and mom terlalu sayang sama anak sulungnya so she always silent everytime it happens?? she too soft kind of mother?? she should have corrected him everytime his attitude gone off and have more power in this household because she is the mother. how could he treated his girl good when he just act like what he wanted to with his sister and mother at home. im so sorry.
