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and one day you'll realize what you do now just too,

childish

02:12

ya Allah

sometimes it still hits me in the chest. please make it recover sooner:'

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and he chose her.

Morning thoughts

Monday, 6.17 AM

it's still hard to accept, no matter how hard I've tried.

the fact that he left, the fact that he likes her more, and still lying about how he was just wanted to becoming friends with her, the fact that he's not the same person anymore, the fact that he becoming somebody that i never thought that he would've,  the fact that I've trusted him and his words but now it just something that he would forgotten, the fact that it's only me, who's feeling tortured the most.

everything seems so unfair to me.
why it is only me that been through this. he seems really okay about this. he's so fine and happy. and that makes me think that what we had was just a game, kada penting, cuma angin lalu.

he made his decision, without including mine in there. he wouldn't even care anyway.

i blame me for taking the relationship too seriously. because i did, i really did. and you said you did too. you're the one who said it the most anw.

my trust issue is growing more and more. it's still hard for me. whose love being wasted and played. when it is my first. make me wonder and thinking so many stuffs. being disappointed of you who treats me like this now. kalo udah move on, ya kenapa dihindari terus ? diacuhkan dll. selow. aku yg masih ja selow, pdhal my my chest and throat are burning everytime i see you and hear your voice 😊.
but it's okay, it'll be okay. i got Allah, who'll make my feeling gone and be okay. i got this.

2017 1/2

"it's okay, it's okay"
"maaf"
"ya udah lah ya"
"sabar.."
"ya udah biar aja.."
''kembali ke Allah semuanya"

i think those will be things that I'll remember the most from 2017. Hope I'll be just fine since everything.